Today I am pretending to be Enlightened

"Today I am pretending to be enlightened" - GhostDog - Mindless meanderings

NOTE: Sometimes you are enlightened and other times you pretend to be enlightened. The path is not a given "Life is Suffering". Today I am suffering because I am pretending to be enlightened, how am I pretending? Today it takes effort to be peaceful and calm and to be at one with all things, to touch the "Spirit that moves in all things". How do you know when you are NOT pretending? When there is no "Suffering" in the effort to be peaceful, it comes at will and affects all that is around you. It comes in the smallest of beauties and simplest of things, they shear pleasure of watching a passing cloud or feeling a cool breeze against you skin. When you are "Pretending" It is like lifting weights or training (not doing, doing is different than training) in the Martial Arts. You want to be enlightened but, the path is difficult, you have to think about it, therefore making it a conscious effort and putting thought into it. Pretending is discipline and it is that discipline over time that will make the path effortless "No Suffering" or better yet the absence of suffering. So today I will pretend and practice discipline and maybe tomorrow it will have no effort and not have a conscious though about it. Everything is a lesson and today is a lesson in discipline. Practice, practice, practice. Today a Punch is more than a Punch, and a Kick more than a kick, and a block more than a block and tomorrow I can hope that a Punch will be a punch, a kick just a kick and a block a block. An effortless mindless action without any thought to be enlightened, I will just be.

My mind today is an “Affliction”. The mind has stopped and is not free floating.

Peace be with you